It was one year ago.

May 11, 2005.

Our 2nd month.

We never did get the chance to celebrate last month for she was in the hospital. Now, we did not either, becausew e were busy with the incrementing school work. But it was not as straining as it was supposed to be. Why? Because we were with each other. We find fun doing things together. Now is different, we both have different worlds, different aquaintances and different everyday scenarios.

Tomorrow will change everything.
The only constant thing in this world is change.

My fate turned to stone.

The agenda : Exist test. I went there via the secret passage from Ministop near the Philippine Stock Exchange Building. The test was relatively easy with basic Java questions. But I don't think they will be getting an employee with passing grade, they like to see if you can perfect the test. I can safely assume I did well but I don't know if that is enough. I met this person, I thought she was my age but she was already 28! Heheheh, and what a small world, she knew my ate who is walking in Singapore. Cool diba? The two degree thing is true after all.

Anyways, they said they'll be calling after a week or so. Can I wait? Let's see.

Decisions, decision.

I have reached an ultimatum.
If nothing comes out right today, I will take it.
I will have a test and interview at Exist
and I halfwished that I could pass it
so I cannot continue on with my plans.

I haven't slept last night. I was thinking of my future scenarios.
Will my decision change anything? Will I make it better.
I will do this for me.
I tried to force it out of my head just for a while so I can sleep.
But images of the future kept pouring in.
What will I become after that long period of time.
Will I change for the better or will I remain as adamant as I am?

Sleepiness, forced its way into my head.
I cannot fight anatomy after all.
I dozed of to la-la land and I had a dream.
I dreamt about the future. It's consequence and it's offering.
I had many nameless new friends.
We were laughing after I cracked a joke or too.
I am quite a comedian myself, and no one will be bored when
I am around. I am quite sure of that.
For a while, I thought I was happy, I welcomed the scenario,
as a catalyst for my descision.
Nothing can go wrong.

I wish.