Life sucks.

Bored is an understatement on what state i am now. Damn. I've been facing this damn monitor for the past 9 hours or so. But guess what? I am doing nothing. Nada. Zip. My eyes are getting tired reading posts on peyups.

Ok, going through this state of existence now is just as hard as yesterday, or the day before. I am not complete. But hey, i try to be. Maybe not now, but somewhere in time, maybe i can find myself again and smile once again. Yeah.

Coping up is harder than it sounds. Coping up is like living each day - excruciatingly, one by one. Counting days as if you are in an eternal limbo. Everything is moving in slow mo, while you wanted to be much faster, the time, mocks you by moving ever so slowly. Yes, that's is life, it mocks you while making you strong.

Soon.. very soon. Maybe i can find myself once again? Time will tell.

My Nightingale.

And I will flail under these lights, that seep down from the bitter sky tonight
and I will kick and beat my wrists together and feel an ocean breathing waves,
feel them licking at my face.
Ceilings don't exist and there are no floors beneath me.
If I were king of this night, would you become my queen?

And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.

I'll have to walk a thousand miles just to find the ground deserving of your feet.
You could throw me down and walk on me
and I'd just look on through my love and through the haze.

And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.

The nightingales are singing now.
They're calling out our marriage to our subjects on their knees.
Their jewelery is thrown into the air.
They sigh at their release as their shackles hit the ground.
The trumpets call out now, we're home at last.

And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.