As The Wings Of Perfect Flame Glow Out Of Passion.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Excerpts from the other blog.

Raining. Wind billows. The road was wet as well as my eyes. I walked this familiar road and I realized my mistakes. The words I told you minutes ago. I looked like an idiot, but that's what I really am - an idiot. I told her this will be the last time I will be trying to win her back. It is true. I have finally finally given up. I gave up the fight I have faithfully waged for the past ten months. I wish she is happy. I really do. Even without me as her love. I will stay as her beastfriend. That's were we started and I cannot just throw the 5 years of friendship we shared. That friendship is stronger.

Our friends told me that she looked gloomy and lonely. Is she lonely? She told me she is not, so I would believe her. I've always believed in her. Though there are times I looked over the fact that she is so honest and I would put my own insecurites before me, I know she is the most real a person can get. That's what I loved about her. She never kept secrets to me. We don't hide anything from the other. The darkest secrets and the vivid ones. She knows everything about me and vice versa. That's what made me realize that I cannot just throw everything away. Though she is not my girlfriend anymore, I can safely say that I am happy that I have my friend back.

She will find her man, and I will find my woman. I wish whoever that man maybe, will take care of her like I do. She is a little moody and secretive, but soon, she can open up and be a true person. She made a new me, and I thank God for that. I'm sad that things ended up this way, but I'm glad that I still have her.

So long and goodbye. Thanks.

I arrived home, had a last reckoning for things. I cried. I slept.

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My readers, thank you for visiting the site for almost 2 years now. It is one of the strongest Filipino blog out there. Sorry if I remained anonymous to you. For the people out there who still thinks the things I wrote here are fictional, sorry, but this is really true to life. As real as it gets. I don't know if I will be able to continue this. Maybe a few chapters every week or so. But I honestly don't think our story will continue. I have given up, she has given up. Time has the answer to everything.

Again, thank you guys for the numerous comments and mails. Sorry if I haven't answered all of them. Thanks!


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