Purchases and Ironies.

Ok, I was really contemplating hard about a recent LCD monitor purchase I've made. Since I will not be rested until I bought something that I've been contemplating (doing research, comparing to other items etc...) to buy for weeks, I bought it. I doubt that it was a smart purchase but hell, I will not rest until I got that, so I got it. That's the way I am with everything... so nothing new there.

Anyway, all doubts and regrets were erased as soon as I booted it up. It was worth it and a nice and welcome addition to my room. I've hooked it up to my 360, my ancient computer and my speakers, and man, it was so sweet! It was awesome, you can see the friggin' pores on the people's faces on it. When I am at home with no plans on going out, I think I'll never leave my room because I got everything I need there; maybe a little ref and arinola will complete it... I'll ponder on that more.

I told my parents that I just won it from some raffle so they'll not grill me regarding that. A while ago, they noticed I got a new phone and they grilled me for hours. (My father got my ancient V3x to replace his ancient Nokia, so I don't see much ground on their argument there). I was like - it's my money so I can do what the hell I want with it. Besides, I've got no kid to support. Anyway, talking about grilling, my mom is asking me to cough out money for my friggin' insurance that she forced me to get. Well, I forgot that it was that time of the year already, and I got no ready cash to give her since I am not too inclined on getting that insurance in the first place. And I want to spend it myself rather than spending it on an insurance that will take too long before I reap the benefits.

On any rate, I know it's for me, so I'll give it to her on March. Alas, my perfect attendance bonus, my convertible leaves and my Year end bonus will be gone by then. Add the fact that it's now summer, and my friends are organizing out of Luzon trips. Sigh... Zero bank account. Haha, anyway, what's important is that I'm living my life to the fullest and at least, I have some investments that I am "saving" for the future. Oh well, I know I can handle financial pressure... well, for now that I don't have too much responsibilities.

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On the other hand, my grandmother just passed away. She was 94. What's ironic is that my father's supposed to go home to Bicol this Tuesday to see her (he just got home from Abu Dhabi last week). Which is sad. So they're planning on leaving this Monday (today) to pay respects.

I never got close to my grandmother (or any relatives, for that matter), but when she's healthy back when I was a kid, I used to watch her chew on nganga (some kind of brown stuff that's wrapped on leaves and stuff), and I was wondering what the hell is that. It smells good and it looks tasty. And that was my only memory of her. I reckon that's the secret of her long life... I learned just recently that this is like tobacco which has nicotine - I don't know and I've researched it but, alas, google don't have it. I guess Google doesn't live up to its rep. Hehe.

Anyway, to Mama Anday (never get to know her real name and that's what my relatives call her), where ever you are, you are there... :) I'm happy because I've heard the things you've been going through while fighting your old age and it's not pleasant, and finally you've rested.

You know what, I want to die before my parents, future wife and kids. Selfish, but I don't know how to deal with a blow like that. I'd be super sad and I know I'd wish I was dead. Anwyay, that's life.