Lagi ka kasing tama.

Morning, you asked me a question. I answered it. Then, yet again, you burst, you burst out your insecurities, your thoughts through piercing words that you know will not ever pierce my armor. Not again.

I told myself that I've had enough of you monologues. Your rants about how life didn't turn out as you wanted it to turn out. Once again, you screamed. Of course, you wouldn't hear my side.

Of course, the facade that you build wasn't even true. Outside, you are proud of me. Outside, you make me look like a hero. But in reality, you are mad. Why? Because I wasn't the son you pictured me to be? Why? It is because of you. You and your facades. You and your ego. You and your mouth.

Of course, you will seek the sympathy of others without telling them what happened. What really happened. Nothing new there, mother. I wished I am independent enough to live on my own. But I am not, so I hold your house as a place where I can sleep and prepare for the next morning. I don't call it my home. It's just a prison where I would inevitably hear your words. If you notice, I never come home with you awake. If you notice, I don't care what you feel. I am numb and for me, you're just a sore.

But I thank you. You have molded me into a person I am now. No lies, no facades, just the truth. A paragon of truth, if you will. I will never be the same as you.

Soon, I'll be leaving. And when I do, you wouldn't even hear me leave. I wouldn't even look back.

You will never ever again hurt me. Ever.

So it ends like it began.

The smell of incense
It fills the air inside this room
Cast of light colorly strewn about the floor
A casket lined with pills
And the bitter taste of absinth
To wash it down

And so it ends like it began
At a cross
Along this interstate
A worn inscription
All cracked and faded
These actions will remain
When bodies turn to dust
And from this monument
I will drown inside the anguish of your heart

A new dawn broke this morning
Tears were raining in this room
As pure as holy water
Reflecting images of you
This world is like a whore
So ravish and so beautiful
So bitter cold and all alone

And if i had my way
We'd wake up on the day we met
I'd stare into your heart for hours
And try to make you hear the sweetest thoughts
But not tonight
We die inside each others arms
We'd revel in our last embrace
I'd steal the breath right from your heart
And kiss you as we die

I rest my lifeless head upon your heart
Forever
I rest my lifeless head upon your heart
Forever
I rest my lifeless head upon your heart
Forever

Maybe i'll bring you sunlight after all
I'm sorry
Maybe i'll bring you sunlight after all
I'm sorry
Maybe i'll bring sunlight after all
I'm sorry
Maybe i'll be sunlight after all
So sorry

Maybe i'll greet sunlight after all
I'm sorry
Maybe i'll greet sunlight after all