Insurance.

Ok, I know I've ranted about my mother for years now. But, like all my rants, this has to be taken off the chest...

So I've paid my insurance (it's due last tuesday), but since I am at a financial crisis right now, I am a little bit short. After I got to office, she texted me that I have to complete the amount... and just as I expected she texted something like this:

"Al, kulang yung pera na binayad mo, kulang pa ng (insert amount here)."

I replied: "Wala na ako pera, yan lang kaya ko..."

And guess what, the amount is like 30% more than what I am missing. Apparently, she wants to kick back a little more. Damn, that crazy wench is driving me nuts. I want to get out of the house but alas, I cannot since I am still tied up with all this crazy payments all over the place.

If I have my money to myself, I can easily get someone to live with me in an apartment. Maybe in Makati so it would be easy and finally, I can live independently - which is something I wanted to do for the longest time.

I remember years ago when I was a graduating student starting to look for a job, my mom said something to the effect of:

"Pag nagkatrabaho kayo, hindi naman ako manghihingi eh..."

Weeks after that I got a job at ATP and after that she said something like:

"Shempre, dapat magbibigay kayo every sweldo."

What suck is that my mom always has this side comments that's always pointed to me. Especially this morning, I got pretty pissed because she was (as always) talking to our helper and she was saying that:

"Pag ayaw maraming dahilan."

I didn't eat my breakfast, took a bath and went straight to work just to avoid her getting on my nerves and talk back. It's always like this... everytime. I don't want to make it work since I've really given up on her and her selfish ways.

What sucks is that I don't want to leave RDI to get a higher paying job so I can make ends meet. You see, there are a lot of companies sharking their way to people in the 1 - 2 years work bracket and I am one of them. A number of companies are contacting me right now and I don't want to leave RDI just yet because there is still a lot too learn and I still have this "utang na loob" to my boss.

Anyway, I can't do something about my monster mom so I just endure her and her ways. Someday, I will get out of that house and never look back!

T_T